Feel the moment
Do you know this moment?
A moment when you walk in the corridor, and there is this person that you’ve met before. You don’t know him enough to say hello, or you think that he should say it first. The same is true for this person. You glimpse at him while walking; he does the same to you, nothing happens.However, if you try to concentrate on your emotions and focus on other person’s behavior, you’ll find the strength of this moment. You’ll be able to observe the forces that both attract and repel you.
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I was walking in the corridor then there was this girl. I met her before, we talked once, like six months ago.
I looked at her, she looked at me. I didn’t want to say hello or something. I just observed (I enjoy observing world around me).
No, No, I didn’t stare or anything, I hate when people do this. I just glimpsed at her two or three times.
The last glimpse was a bit longer than 3 seconds. I looked directly in her eyes. I was full with anticipation. What would happen?
Then, I saw her eyes, she was looking directly at me,
I continued looking, and I saw for a short instant in her eyes confusion, question, and doubt. Her eyes started looking for another fixed point,
in an attempt to break the short connection formed between us for 1 or 2 seconds.
Finally, she looked at the floor.
We passed each other and never met again.
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You may call me weird, but once you try it yourself, you’ll understand what I’m talking about.
Inspiring video
The Aghori is Shaivit Hindu sect which is known for their extreme and outlandish violations of typical Indian and other social mores, as well as their unorthodox, taboo rites. I believe this video tries to show the particularity of Aghori view through the dance.
My, my creation!
I can hear it. Her voice, Her calm and sweet voice. She looks at me and smiles.
No, no. Please don’t… Look at the floor. Hide my eyes.
Oh noo! My, My hands are shaking, my heart starts beating faster.I know this feeling,
It’s the same as the first time I saw her
Quick,This feeling, I should suppress it. I should destroy it before it takes control of my entire body.
She is calling me!! She wants to talk to me!
No, I can’t, I should not. She is a real one!!!!
If I talk to her, it will destroy the divine statue of her that I built in these years, these sleepless nights.
I can’t talk to her. If I do, it will destroy her. The statue that I carefully shaped in my imagination.
This perfect being that I visit in my lucid dreams.
I cannot kill her, the ideal her is too precious for me. Virtual her is my goddess,
The real one is just ugly attempt to…. She is just human, like me, and everybody else.
No, no, no.. She is calling me again! What should I do?
She is approaching. Fast, think, I should protect my creation, once and for all.
I feel this power, she is giving it to me. I and my creation will be together till I die!
Each time, I close my eyes, I see you, The perfect you!
She touches my shoulder. I quickly turn, and jump on her.
I squeeze her neck with my hands, I’m not shaking anymore. I know what needs to be done.
I look at her eyes, I see her soul living this flesh, she is nothing, just human, like you and me.
She stops resisting after two minutes.
I let her human body go, it hits the floor, everyone is looking at me,
I don’t care, I protected my goddess, my creation, nothing will separate us anymore and nothing can harm us.
I close my eyes…
She is there, looking at me and smiling.
Her calm and sweet voice….
Help me, I’m afraid!
Where am I?
It’s cold and dark out here. It smells terrible, I cannot breath.
I hear slowly approaching footsteps. I feel this.
He is here. What do I do? I cannot move.
No, he knows where I am. Some one help me!
Don’t, Don’t do this to me. No, don’t cut me. AHHHHhhh My body, my body is ….
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He left. When will it all end? I can’t take it anymore. I won’t last long.
I don’t wanna die, I’m too young and … Why it’s me not someone else?
God please! Save me!
Heat
The sacred heat. Formation of heat is accompanied by frequent periodic movements of their bodies. They charge surroundings with enormous energy. They increase disorder around them and in them. They become one and no one. Their eternal flight compressed into a moment ends when they hit limits of their possibilities. Their fall is sudden and quick. In an instant, they pass from the top to the bottom, for the gravity increases as one goes higher.
Exploring the world 
