Category Archives: Thoughts

Feel the moment

Do you know this moment?

A moment when you walk in the corridor, and there is this person that you’ve met before. You don’t know him enough to say hello, or you think that he should say it first. The same is true for this person. You glimpse at him while walking; he does the same to you, nothing happens.However, if you try to concentrate on your emotions and focus on other person’s behavior, you’ll find the strength of this moment. You’ll be able to observe the forces that both attract and repel you.


I was walking in the corridor then there was this girl. I met her before, we talked once, like six months ago.

I looked at her, she looked at me. I didn’t want to say hello or something. I just observed (I enjoy observing world around me).

No, No, I didn’t stare or anything, I hate when people do this. I just glimpsed at her two or three times.

The last glimpse was a bit longer than 3 seconds. I looked directly in her eyes. I was full with anticipation. What would happen?

Then, I saw her eyes, she was looking directly at me,

I continued looking, and I saw for a short instant in her eyes confusion, question, and doubt. Her eyes started looking for another fixed point,

in an attempt to break the short connection formed between us for 1 or 2 seconds.

Finally, she looked at the floor.

We passed each other and never met again.


You may call me weird, but once you try it yourself, you’ll understand what I’m talking about.


Help me, I’m afraid!

Where am I?

It’s cold and dark out here. It smells terrible, I cannot breath.

I hear slowly approaching footsteps. I feel this.

He is here. What do I do? I cannot move.

No, he knows where I am. Some one help me!

Don’t, Don’t do this to me. No, don’t cut me. AHHHHhhh My body, my body is ….


He left. When will it  all end? I can’t take it anymore. I won’t last long.

I don’t wanna die, I’m too young and … Why it’s me not someone else?

God please! Save me!

My photo


The sacred heat. Formation of heat is accompanied by frequent periodic movements of their bodies. They charge surroundings with enormous energy. They increase disorder around them and in them. They become one and no one. Their eternal flight compressed into a moment ends when they hit limits of their possibilities. Their fall is sudden and quick. In an instant, they pass from the top to the bottom, for the gravity increases as one goes higher.

The Human Herd

If we observe the development of humanity through ages of human evolution, we are going to notice the same pattern, search for uniqueness. Everyone wants to be different and must be different; this can be easily observed in every written book, conversation, and movie. However, this search for uniqueness is the eternal source of human problems because difference creates instability.

Asymmetric  world is unstable, for the parts of such system are always changing. Think about it, what is harder  to control, herd of sheep or herd of sheep mixed with wolves and elephants. Obviously, the second herd cannot even exist in nature, but if it existed, then it would be impossible to control, since wolves  eat sheep. Now, let’s think about human society: we have social hierarchy and tend to stay in groups. This herd behavior is called the human herd.  Sheep herd is a symmetric system which can be easily controlled by dogs, for their behavior fallows  the same pattern, since they are all the same and respond in the same way to stimuli. On the other hand, human society is an asymmetric system  because it is composed from individuals whose values and interest change unpredictably. Thus, making it really hard to control. However, the difference between individuals creates conflicts and leads to social instability. To eliminate the social conflicts and make society easy to control, government is installed and propaganda of certain values is made.

Different social movements are fighting this system, the most popular of them are Anarchists and Anonymous. These social movements go against the homogenization of culture and society and promote uniqueness and critical thinking. In the same time, they are destabilizing current social system by increasing the gap between humans; thus, creating fertile soil for social conflicts on different levels and destroying current human civilization.

The modern progress of humanity is due to the homogenization of cultures and individuals. For example, the promotion of consumerism among people supplement economical growth of many countries. Also, the promotion of common ideology – democracy and human rights- makes wars less frequent among countries who accepted it. No one would fight with oneself (by this I mean no one  would attack another person whose believes are completely similar to one’s). In addition, this homogenization permits to humans to focus on the specific fields of research making the results faster to achieve, for the task is accomplished faster if there are 20 people working on it, than if there is only one human.

It’s clear that humans have chosen symmetric system which for certain boosts our chances of survivor and progress. However, one question worries me: Is the loss of individuality for the sake of human progress  worth it?

Question which human mind is unable to contain

Question which human mind is unable to contain

Multiple Personality Disorder

Emmy award-winning film is a look into how people can develop multiple personalities. This is a look at the amazing capacity of the mind to survive abuse through the splitting off of personalities. Usually taking hold in childhood, Multiple Personality Disorder is thought of as many people’s way of shutting out abuse and trauma from their formative years. During this film we get to see some people who suffer from the disorder, whilst exhibiting their various different personalities.
Film by: HBO / Michael Mierendorf / Gloria Steinem
Year: 1993


We only live in present. However, limiting one self to the present reality, living only in present forgetting the past and without thinking about the future, restricts our only once happening life experience to one dimension, present. Meanwhile, those who remember past, live in their memories, live in their dreams and live in present are virtually everywhere on their timeline. They experience their existence fully.

The feeling of life

People feel that they are alive  when they are facing death.

   Sorry I don’t know who said it.

Playing with logic #4

We love something because it is composed of the elements which please us. These elements are universal, and there are infinitely many of them since they appear as long as we live. Therefore, they can be put together in infinitely many different ways, so there are infinitely many things in the world that humans  love. Thus, as long as you look around and observe, the probability of finding something new that you are going to love equals 100%. For this reason, we are surrounded by different things we love.

Playing with logic #3

Life is short; consequently, we don’t have enough time to accomplish all our dreams. If you accomplish your dreams, than you have had enough time. Therefore, your life has not been short.

There is a logical fallacy in it.